Hitting the GYM!

So, I haven’t been posting as much recently, which wasn’t intentional…I had been feeling a bit crappy for a while.

However, lately I have been pretty busy and just haven’t had much free time. As I’ve been trying to create a positive snowball effect of things to improve my life a little bit.

I have been consistently hitting the gym..an working out with a trainer friend of mine. Gains son! Lol, anyway…I have been seeing some pretty decent results not in just physical appearance, which used to be the most important thing to me…wanted to look good when I took my shirt of, haha…but, also in actual applicable strength. Something that I know many CFer’s deal with when they go extended periods being stuck in bed, or being told by Dr.’s to “take it easy…”

It is very easy to develop a sedentary lifestyle when you have something like CF or anything that is chronic and debilitating, it becomes almost SOP to take is easy. It takes less to feel sick, especially when you don’t limit what you do, so putting limits on yourself is just almost a knee-jerk reaction.

So, I used to be pretty heavy into body building, I weighed like 160 and was pretty jacked especially because of my body frame, and the near 0% body fat, lol…CF does have some benefits, even if they are kind of shallow…I went a good long time away from the gym, but I had some muscle memory still and the first couple workouts were surprisingly beneficial. Then you hit that “wall” where you really have to push through because you aren’t seeing the same instant results you were seeing for those first couple of workouts back.

Now, it had been about 1.5 months and I’ve been pretty consistent, I’m seeing some new muscle definition after breaking through that wall of resistance you get for the first but of time you start lifting again…its kind of a strange feeling to describe, but you feel “off, slow, weak, out of place, unsure of yourself, or even unsure of your workout routine…”

It took a few weeks for that to go away but, since I’ve experienced it before I knew I had to keep at it and let myself feel the frustration, so that I could feel when I passed that wall…and sure enough I did, I started being able to lift more, seeing more perpetual pumps, and generally having more energy and strength during the days.

It goes without saying that the physically visual benefits of working out are what a lot of people go for, I used to be one of them…but, as I’ve seen more CF related problems come into my life the impact that isn’t outwardly visible is WAY more of what I’m going for…useful, applicable strength, and generally feeling better…that’s what I hit the gym hard for. Don’t get my wrong though, it’s a great feeling to go into the locker room post workout, pull off your shirt, and see he visual improvements of killing a workout.

Well, this is a pretty long post, but I wanted to jump back in with both feet. I am going to go back to doing a couple of posts a week, as well as some new body/CF life hacks…and now I have a few more that I had forgotten over the years.

So, if you have something life CF or any chronic illness that greatly restricts what you can/can’t do sometimes the benefits of pushing that “I don’t feel good, I’m just gonna take it easy” feeling out of the way, sucking It up, blasting a few albuterol shots, and just getting out and doing what you need/want to do outweighs the consequences you will end up facing. For me the biggest one is actually psychological. And there’s an incredible benefit and feeling to know I could have stayed home but I sucked it up and did my thing anyway.

Hope everyone has a good rest of the week, thanks for taking the time to read!

–  Will

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The Return…

So, it has been a pretty long time since I’ve posted anything, I haven’t been doing too well health wise, but trying to keep my spirits up.

I had some really bad CF rundown, and then a week ago I had a broken tooth extracted…that’s 3 now in less than 2 years, ughhh!

But, I don’t want to let this blog go stagnant, however I have to admit it has been low on my list of priorities, especially being in pain and not being able to take pain medicine…I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before, but I have had a problem with pain meds in the past, doctors will fuck you up if you’re not careful…

Anyways, I’m doing a good bit better now, still not totally healed up, but on my way for sure…hopefully!?

After my Mollie girl left us, I had a pretty rough couple of weeks, then an extraction and now I’m finally starting to come out the other side, but its a bitch to say the least.

However, I am a strong willed person and I wont let things defeat me anymore, besides killing me I’m not gonna stop. So, good…but, kind of morbid I know, lol…

Well, I just wanted to get back into the swing of things and get y’all updated on my situation…im not dead…lol! I hope everyone has had a good spring break, Easter, or anything you’ve been up to really…

And finally, I will be posting regularly again, and am actually thinking about upgrading my site subscription for some different benefits and more personalization, maybe starting to branch out a bit and see how it goes…so wish me luck!

Thanks for reading and hope everyone is doing well!

– Will

 

Stay Positive

So, lately I’ve been having a rough time both physically with the Cystic Fibrosis, and also a little bit mentally.

Physically, I’ve been having a rough time with the allergy season, It has sapped my energy, and made my face itchy, watery, and red…lol…it sucks…

Mentally, I’m having a bit of trouble, I’m alone a lot and I’m struggling to figure out what to do with my downtime, especially when I don’t have energy to do shit…

Making yourself do things when you don’t feel good is one thing, but when you feel extra shitty, its damn near impossible, and when moving is taxing it takes it to a whole new level.

I see and hear about what people are doing and it bums me out…I try my hardest to stay positive, which is very hard to do, and 5 years ago I would’ve had a serious breakdown by now, probably gone on a bender and paid for it for several months afterwards. Now, I have gotten my shit together since then, but mentally it is never going to be easy to go through life with CF.

I am always going to have to be strong mentally, not being rock solid will lead to my demise, and not metaphorically, but literally…it definitely takes a toll on you knowing things will NEVER get easier, in fact they’ll only get harder.

It is a mind f#ck and then some…but, I am strong, and I will stay positive, and I will make it…

I have made the resolve of my inner strength being solid, I have an iron will, and it cant be broken. Maybe temporarily damaged, but nothing will ever break me totally again, ever. To tell the truth knowing that is the only thing that keeps me going…is that I wont break, life will have to get rid of me to break me, and even then I hope to leave behind a legacy that outlasts my time here physically.

With that I’m gonna go listen to some rap, and get in the mood to dominate when I wake up tomorrow!! Do what you gotta do…