Health Insurance

So, I’ve been excited that Obamacare is going to be replaced, as I haven’t had health insurance in several years.

Now if you talk to many Democrats they will tell you Obamacare gave access to healthcare for people who couldn’t get it otherwise…and that just isn’t true.

Here are the reasons why health insurance in America needs an overhaul:

  1. When I was younger I qualified for Medicaid based on my Cystic Fibrosis and my age, most of my doctor appointments were covered, aside from the ones my family could afford to pay, in those cases we paid upfront. It was an affordable price…
  2. After 18, I went on my parents insurance for a few years…but, when I turned 21 I stopped being on my parents health insurance. So, I just went without, however at the time it wasn’t a huge problem most Dr.’s would just charge me for the services rendered and not the “co-pay” costs which weren’t bad but recently have become outlandish.

And just for a bit of insight I take many medications…and just two of them are what I will tell you about. One if them is a pancreatic enzyme…and the first time I went to fill this medicine without Medicaid the cost of that medicine was $3900/month, the second was a liquid that went into a nebulizer…and that one costs around $12,000/month…I know absolutely nuts. Why, and who could afford that??

3. When Obama touted his Obamacare I thought “oh great i’ll be able to get coverage again.” I was sadly mistaken, as the quotes I got were absolutely outrageous. But, I was being told by the news that it would be affordable coverage regardless of preexisting conditions. Which was a lie…

4. Now, as recently as November I applied for federal assistance: Medicaid, SSI, disability,  etc. and I have repeatedly been turned down…for reasons that don’t make any sense. So, no reason really…”just deny and maybe he’ll stop asking.”

5. Then, looking at a fine of some sort for NOT being able to afford health insurance is insanity. So, even though it’s supposed to be accessible to all Americans, it isn’t because it is still outrageously priced, and they may not turn you down because of a preexisting condition, but it does make monthly premiums skyrocket which makes them unaffordable…and the copays are more expensive than just telling the Dr, pharmacy, etc. that you are going to pay cash.

I guess I don’t know the ins and outs like the insurance companies/government do, but I find it odd, people who imposed Obamacare are exempt from it, and people like me who have things like Cystic Fibrosis, haven’t been abe to afford insurance. So, we can’t afford it and are now being threatened with fines for not being able to afford it…it makes my mind spin, and my head hurt, it’s nonsense.

Hopefully Trump will be able to get something done so that I can obtain AFFORDABLE health care, since I have to spend the majority of my finances on just upkeep of my health. Not to mention being able to do other things like eat, and wear clothes, etc. you know those crazy “extras” lol…sorry, but if I don’t laugh i’ll cry, and then i’ll probably lose my damn mind.

Spoiled little lady

Well, here we are it’s Saturday evening, I am feeling much better after that spat of CF rundown I dealt with for several weeks.  YES!!

I woke up today, and checked my phone for messages, emails, missed calls, etc. I went through the emails, responded to the texts, and called back the one person who I needed to call back before the week.

Then I got up and did my morning routine, had my bottle of water with my 10 +pills, and a few doughnuts, with my coffee then a yogurt. Yum…lol.

After I finished that up I took my dog Mollie out, and we frolicked around a bit she loves this weather, not too hot not too cold, and super windy. Then we came in and got a treat for the spoiled little lady. She is such a sweetie, and she brings me so much joy and happiness when I am down, and even lifts me up further than I am when I’m feeling good.

So, we came in and I went to the bathroom, and grabbed a quick shower, and got dressed.

After I had a few mins to relax after all of my morning routine, which included coughing up a lung, luckily I didn’t puke today…lol…yay! So, sometimes I don’t even think about that stuff but want to include it on my blog so y’all can see what days are like for me. But, often I forget because I’m used to it…it’s an everyday thing. So after about 30-45 mins I am good to go.

I flipped off my music, nd turned on my TV, because its Saturday which means College Basketball all day! So I put my DVR on and went to make some snacks, drinks, etc.

I made some vanilla cinnamon spiced tea, and another coffee, as well as a nice glass of milk, to go with the peanut butter/honey sandwich, crackers, and chicken noodle soup I whipped up.

So I brought it all up to my room, and started in the games…going through the ones I wanted to watch and skipping the ones I wasn’t to fond of or that better ones were on instead at the same time. Meanwhile, munching on the goodies I had prepared after my shower.

Well, now it is about 645pm and I’m still going on the basketball games, but I also realized that Lord of the Rings is on…the new ones…so I flipped over to the basketball games so I could DVR the 3 LOTR movies instead.

Now, I’m waiting until I have those backed up enough that I can fast forward through the commercials (I hate commercials…lol) and am finished up my tea, and talking with my family about what were going to do for dinner…thinking about a mini Thanksgiving dinner, one of my favorites!

Anyways, that’s how my Saturday post CF rundown is going and I hope all of yall’s are going well also, as I don’t get much time where I feel this good, I wanted to write and show y’all that I’m not always downtrodden…I am sometimes very uplifted and fun, who knew? Haha, sometimes I have to force myself to remember how much fun I used to be, and doing so brings it to the surface a bit more.

But, I am going to go enjoy the rest of my day, probably snack a bit more before dinner, and maybe even have an adult beverage in a bit, especially if we have turkey for dinner, it makes me feel in Holiday-ish mood. Sooo, everyone have a great rest of the weekend, enjoy your family and friends, and don’t forget to reach out to someone if you know they are going through a tough time, as call from a buddy or “bff” can really lift someone’s spirits and not expecting a call and getting one makes it that much more appreciated, even if they forget to say so…

LOL, my little lady is sitting here laying on my feet, she obviously want to go out again, and since its such a beautiful day I will make a drink and go sit outseid with her until she gets bored, then we will come back in have a treat, “rinse and repeat.” Love this little goofball!! I’m out, thanks for reading…

High and Low

I just recently got over a pretty bad bout of CF rundown, and I noticed something that I’ve thought about a lot over the past several years. I have a lot of variance between high’s and low’s in my life. So much so that I’m used to it to the point where its just normal to me. I know everyone gets used to their life as “normal” and I guess that’s part of my point, it’s strange what we can become used to…

I know people who are used to drinking everyday until they pass out, I know people who don’t drink at all and only do hard drugs, I also know people who have had 3 kids since high school, and all of them are used to their lives. It’s just their normal, and that’s fine, no judgment here…I’m not a judgmental person. But, it does make you think about what things in your life are just your normal and how easily you can get used to that stuff.

I have been “sick” since I was 3, when I was diagnosed with Cystic Fibrosis. Everyday since then I have taken 20-40 pills, done several breathing treatments, and had very specific dietary restrictions, and requirements…depending on my current health situation that stuff can vary and fluctuate. But, I see how other people live and they don’t have to do this stuff, when I noticed the difference at a young age I realized my normal was different but didn’t really have to think about that as an indefinite life path until around the beginning of highschool. That’s when it started to affect how I thought about things and how I approached things. Then college rolled around and I tried to push that stuff to the back of my mind, and “hide” my CF with more medication, and things that wouldn’t be considered medicine, but more “self-medication.”

As the time in college passed I slowly became a little more aware of how different my life was going to end up as compared to my friends, classmates, and fraternity brother’s. I realized they could whenever they chose change their life path and do something different, but I was always going to have CF, nothing I could do would change that.

Now, I’m pushing 30…and I sit up at night and wonder what would be my life if I didn’t have CF, what would I be doing and where would I be right now? Its a question that really messes with me sometimes, other times I handle it well. I’m sometimes referred to as a morbid person, but I’m not really, I just have had to come to terms with death from a young age. Which allows me not only to look at things differently, but look at life itself in a way that most people don’t get to ever. I sometimes find myself classifying it as a blessing but other times I classify it as a curse. I definitely have an “old soul” as people so often say, but people don’t realize its been aged more by my life and health circumstances until they really get to know me.

Anyways, I’ve been in a pretty bad low for the past several weeks, maybe a bit longer, and can tell I am coming out of it, but I’m still in it enough to have the vantage point that kind of messes with my head. I don’t want to be sick…it sucks. I don’t want to have all of this extra shit to do all of the time, but I do, and it will never change. I just have to deal with it the best I can and so that is what I will do. So, having said that I realize why peoples normal is different, but I envy those who can change their normal…because I can’t…and I will never be able to.

TV/Movie Binge

This past weekend, I was going through my cable box movies, and sometimes for a day here or there, or even a weekend I notice that the “premium channels” HBO, ShowTime, Cinemax, etc. are open. Now, I watch a good bit of TV, but I’ve been trying to consciously reduce the amount of time I spend bingeing TV or movies, with CF that’s easier to say than do though.

When you’re laying up in bed after being in the bathroom for several hours, or you haven’t been able to keep food down because you’re coughing so much, TV is one of the easier ways to “escape.” Therefore, it becomes almost like a friend, you desire good TV and are mad when nothing is on or your cable provider is giving you a hard time.

Like I said though I’m kind of a frequent binge watcher, I can literally watch 2,3 movies in a row or kill an entire season of a show in 1 day and 1 night. So, it’s one of those things that is kind of like social media in that its annoying sometimes and doesn’t always go the way you would like it to, but its really nice having it when you need it.

Recently I was scrolling through my on demand options and noticed that all the premium channels were open, so I jumped right in…I watched several great movies, ones that I’ve been wanting to see but didn’t want to buy, or forgot about until I saw their title again. I watched “Legend” with Tom Hardy, AMAZING movie, right up my alley. I also watched the new “Fantastic 4,” which I found to be kind of boring and stale, especially with the cast they had available to them, it was just scripted weird and predictable. Then I watched the “Imitation Game” which I’ve seen before and is one of my favorite movies, but more so because Benedict Cumberbatch is a bad ass actor. I like this whole wave of European 25-40 year old actors that have taken over the movie scene in the past 10 or so years: Tom Hardy, Benedict Cumberbatch, Christian Bale, Gerard Butler, Daniel Craig, etc. After I had a chance to search through what was available, I also watched “Triple 9,” which was a little bit of a letdown, and not very well cut together. Finally, I watched “Burnt” with Bradley Cooper, and that wasn’t what I expected, but in a good way. It was super intense, but very good and I’m a fan of the guy from “the American’s” on FX who was basically his nemesis, or rival chef.

All in all I had a couple of days there where I was just zoned into the TV and being able to escape like that for someone like me with Cystic Fibrosis, or any terminal illness where time can almost stand still while you feel like shit, but fly by on the days when you are feeling ok, or even good is an absolutely amazing feeling Being that most of the time any escape is just a less of two evils type of thing i.e. if my stomach isn’t feeling so great today I won’t notice as vividly the ability to not be able to eat, or that I’m coughing up a bunch of nastiness. And on the flipside, if my breathing is raspy and I cant get a full breath, the last thing on my mind is how my stomach feels even though it doesn’t feel good, my preoccupation with my breathing takes the focus away from one and puts it on the other.

Funny as it is though sometimes neither matters, and I cant breath, I’m stuck in the bathroom , I’m sore and achy, I’m coughing up a lung, and bleeding out every orifice of my dysfunctional body. Those days are my “hell,” the other days are my normal, and as I get older the day that seem like hell are steadily becoming my normal and what I now consider “normal” are becoming the good ones…LOL it sucks, hands down.

So, with that being as much as I can get out of my fogged out brain today, I will say good afternoon, and hopefully everyone has a good rest of the week. Follow me on Twitter @William85887, and pass this blog along to someone you know whos going though a  hard time, maybe it will allow them to forget about their bullshit, by focusing on mine for a bit. I appreciate any who have stopped to check this site out, it means a lot to me. Feel free to message me on here or Twitter, with any questions, comments, advice, etc. I’m always open to meeting new people and hearing new, stories, ideas, or POV’s.

CF Life tip of the day: Don’t let your anger or frustration with your situation dictate how you treat people, always be kind, and if you feel like you’re going to “blow up” go close yourself in a room take 5-10 deep breaths, and try to think about the positive interaction you have had with that person. Not blowing up on someone when you don’t really mean to direct anger at them is a great feeling, and after a couple of times of harnessing in your aggression or negative feeling of any kind, it will become easier, and each time it feels a bit more satisfying.

CF Life Body Hack # 6: If you have to go somewhere and you don’t want to be coughing the whole time, which draws all kinds of weird looks, and unwanted attention, buy a pack of the most “natural” cough drops you can find. Take a few with you, and when you’re going to be around people pop one in your mouth and moisten it, but don’t keep sucking on it Then, tuck it back next to your jaw where you jaw meets your ear in between your gum and teeth. Now don’t do this all the time as stopping the natural reaction of your body coughing is not a good thing. But, if you need a hour here and there where you aren’t coughing up a lung or don’t want puke in front of a bunch of strangers this is a very good little trick.

UFC fights!

Just sitting here watching UFC fights, just watched Paul Felder whoop Ricci down, and he’s a tough dude! I used to train Jiu-jitsu and hopefully am going to get back into it soon.

As I sit here thinking about what not having CF (Cystic Fibrosis) would be like, I envy these guys, even the ones who get smashed! I wish I could be in there…I miss training everyday. My health keeps declining a bit, and so these guys are who I live vicariously through.

Anyways, I always rewind live TV back as far as it goes…like 1.5 hours, so I can fast forward through the commercials. I know kind of impatient I am (don’t know why I just worded that like Yoda…lol)  I just don’t like waiting for the commercials to be over.

So, I’m a bit behind in the show as I’m about to watch Theadoreau vs Ferriera, and I’m got to keep my eyes on this fight. Hope everyone had a good weekend, and has a good upcoming week!

Fighting Sleep

So, its almost 1am…I had pretty busy day today. From my last post you might have seen I thought I really fucked up my mouth (please excuse my vulgarity I’m half asleep and I’m just freewriting) .

Well, it turns out I didn’t do as much damage as I thought I did…I did break a tooth but I only knocked off a piece that was obviously pretty weak anyways, and it was on a tooth that has been giving me trouble for some time, as I have a pretty serious ADEK vitamin deficiency (thanks Cystic Fibrosis). But, I didn’t mess up any of my other ones when I crunched down on it, or at least as far as I can tell I didn’t. Not to say it didn’t suck, and hurt like hell, because it did! But, if I get in to the dental office in the next couple weeks I should be able to get it handled, or that’s what I’m hoping.

However, I sucked it up and passed out last night because I had stuff to do today. A bunch of stuff that again I have been putting off because I’ve been feeling shitty lately finally got done…yay!

I went to the eye doctor and got an exam and a new pair of glasses. And hopefully in a couple weeks ill go back and get some new contacts as well.

I went to the Verizon store because my phone is glitching  like crazy and in a few days I’m gonna go back and pick up my new phone! I’ve had the same one for about 5 years, and since I found out today smartphones only have about a 2-year shelf life, I got a pretty good amount of use out of it.

I stopped by the grocery store to stock up the mini fridge I keep in my room, when I’m too tired or weak to go downstairs this thing is a lifesaver. I keep things like Gatorade’s, yogurt, waters, applesauce, sandwiches (that I make 3-4 at a time and put in baggies) and some drinks: chocolate milk, OJ, ginger ale, etc.

Then I went back and picked up my glasses, as I didn’t realize they had a 1-hour glasses thing I was super excited since for a few weeks I’ve been wearing a pair that is superglued together after I dropped them and then stepped right on them, on a wood floor no less ahh…lol.

Anyways, all in all it was a pretty good day, even though I still had my regular CF pain and stuff: stomach aching, tight chest, coughing up a lung, however, I didn’t have to puke in any bushes from coughing…so that’s a win in my book.

Then I got home and had some dinner, then a couple of oranges, and a bunch of grapes…yummy! Played some PlayStation: NBA Live, and Call of Duty…tomorrow I may whip out the Skyrim. as I don’t have a job currently I have a good bit of free time. Which to be honest Is good because of how sick I’ve been.

Now, I’m sitting here watching Washington vs Arizona State…fighting my heavy eyelids so I can get this blog post up. In the hopes that NIKE, PLAYSTATION, or some other commercial entity will somehow see this and decide they want to sponsor me or have me as a brand ambassador…lol…hey I can dream right?

Hope y’all had a good day, and a have a goodnight!

 

 

 

Routine Extraction

Wake up: 8:30 am (feeling pretty good today)

Make some tea and have an orange and a couple of doughnuts: 9:30 am (not having too much trouble today, must be one of the good ones.)

Take the dog for a walk and stretch/get some fresh air: 10:15 am-11:00 am (nice weather finally)

11:15 am – 2:00 pm: bathroom routine, and shower (extra long shower enjoying the hot water after a long walk)

2:15 pm: make some lunch, and watch a bit of TV (Tuna sandwich and chicken noodle soup, and this new show called “Taboo” which I must say is pretty cool, weird but cool)

4:00 pm: making some phone calls, handling my daily routine of household stuff, cleaning etc. (reveling in the fact that today isn’t really too rough)

5:00 pm: got to talk to my Dad for a good little while (something I don’t get to do too often)

Really having a pretty nice, and normal day…enjoying the weather and playing with my dog, as well as catching up on some stuff I’ve been putting off…can’t complain.

And then my luck rears it’s head and the routine turns to shit!…As I am eating a late afternoon snack I take a bite of seafood pasta, suddenly I feel it. I bite down on a piece of shell, and CRUNCH…one of my teeth breaks…son of a bitch! I run to the bathroom and start examining my mouth, rinsing with mouthwash and getting out my floss sticks to make sure everything is ok. It isn’t…I realize I have broken my back molar and a rather large piece of the side has come off. F@CK ME!! This is just my luck, as I am taking the nice day for granted I get a visit from reality…

So, with CF I have a serious vitamin deficiency, mainly ADEK. One of the thing’s I have come to accept about the Cystic Fibrosis is this: weak bones, weak joints, rapid aging of the body and it’s components. And, just as I am eating my snack it comes back onto me like a ton of bricks…I will be dealing with this kind of bullshit for the rest of my life.

Now, tomorrow when I wake up I will have to call the dentist, and be prepared to be told “you need an extraction” being that the last time I had a serious dental emergency that is what I needed. I am expecting to have a pretty crappy couple of week waiting for an appointment, and trying to figure out how I am going to pay for what I hope is a routine procedure, but due to the nature of CF and the poor health of my body in general, I am expecting the worst. “William you need an extraction of your back right molar, we don’t have any opening for a month, and your dental insurance doesn’t cover this kind of stuff, it will cost around $1500.00.”

You get used to dealing with problems on a regular basis with something like CF, and this is definitely one of the more jarring and miserable ones, as my body deteriorates at an expedited pace. So, here we go…ill find out what is going to come next tomorrow when I call my dentist. FML!

Dave Matthews Band

It’s almost 3 am, and I’m sitting here watching some basketball, listening to “Louisiana Bayou”…wide awake, and bored as hell.

I just went and checked out what the Dave concert coming to my city in May had left tickets-wise…I usually get lawn seat anyways so it shouldn’t be a problem. But, I don’t know how I am going to feel come 5/31…which sucks. Especially because I’d rather have a seat that doesn’t make me super sore afterwards…yay for CF…lol.

I’ve been to several of the concerts in the past ten years…maybe 3-4 and I love it, he’s one of my favorite live musicians by far…but, getting sicker as I am I don’t know if I can make it this year, and that bums me out.

If you’ve been following my blog at all you know I have Cystic Fibrosis, and that I’m trying some new avenues of approach in life, income, activities in general…and basically my approach to being sick all the time and only getting worse, as CF is a progressive degenerative disease.

I haven’t blogged in a few days because I’ve been going through some rough shit, all kinds of unexpected health stuff, family stuff, and just random things that when added on to the already heaping pile of shit on my plate, is like the straw the breaks the camel’s back. I know I complain a lot but I guess that is what this blog is for me…a way to share my pain with people without having to pay a therapist, or annoy my limited number of friends to the point that they want less to do with me than they already do. Its pretty lonely having a genetic disease that restricts your ability to participate in the lives of the people you’ve grown up with and call friends.

So, like I said I just got of Ticketmaster, and am thinking if I can get a family member to “birthday purchase” me some tickets I may go, but if not, I probably wont be able to…sad. I sound pretty f#cking pathetic tonight…I must say. Whatever though, like I said I use this as an outlet so I don’t go nuts keeping it all in.

I am still in the process of trying to find some sponsors or companies that want a CF patient as a brand ambassador, but so far…no luck. Which is ok, I didn’t expect it to happen fast, if it ever happens at all. But, damn…lol. I could use some help in a major way.

If you know anyone looking for a person to sponsor, or if you know a company looking to do some philanthropy, or even a store looking for a brand ambassador…please pass the information along to me, or give them my email: pmma85887@gmail.com. I would be grateful. Also, me and a comedian buddy are going to start doing a podcast, something like “CF kid and the Canuck” or “Laugh at my Sickness with me.” We haven’t started yet, so it’s still in developmental stages obviously, but again, any ad placement or capital would help move things along. And, like I’ve said before compensation will be met with advertising, and promotion…I’m trying to set up some partnerships! Keep me in mind…

Anyways, as I haven’t posted in a while I’ll quit my whining, and get back to the usual…here are my CF Life hack’s, and tip’s of the day:

CF Life tip of the day: Don’t neglect your physical appearance, I have been guilty of this frequently, not getting haircut’s, or wearing sweatpants out…keeping yourself looking good, even if you don’t feel good, can in and of itself boost your mood, and give you a mental edge. As well as dressing nice, it definitely makes you feel better about yourself, and boosts your self-image.

CF Life Body Hack # 5: Sleep with your body in a fixed position, using pillows, keep your head above your torso, this will keep mucus from draining into the back of your throat, which makes it much easier to breathe throughout the night, also, it doubles as keeping reflux from making its way to your esophagus as easily…which with something like CF can literally wake you in a panic thinking you’re having a heart attack…it’s incredibly beneficial. Try it!

Struggling

Its about 1pm on Friday, and I’m struggling pretty badly. Haven’t been feeling too good this week at all, I’m definitely having a rough week to say the least. Just a couple of the things that have been ravaging me this week:

  • Cold –> hot –> cold –> hot –> Freezing…this weather where I live is strange to say the least. When it goes from hot to cold like this, especially this often, my body has to adjust and readjust, and it makes things incredibly hard.
  •  I had some kind of food poisoning, or at the very least a nasty stomach bug. Been in the bathroom a lot. When I’m not, I’m in bed trying to keep myself in the absolute    “right position” so my body can relax and give my abdomen a break.
  • Then there’s the outside stressors that have added onto the joy of this week like getting a notice that my car insurance is going up, and I still can’t find a reasonably priced health insurance.
  • Also, had a death in the family…my Grandmother’s brother died a few days ago, and when people around me die it makes me wonder how I am outliving these people who die for no reason, meanwhile I’m sitting here struggling to breathe, and I’m still alive. Just a weird sort of mind job I’d rather go without.

So, ya that’s what my week has been, riding the struggle bus for sure, but not because of a hangover or anything where I had too much fun. Just the regular old BS that having a chronic illness brings to the table. That’s also the reason I haven’t blogged in several days.

But, anyways…I am finally starting to get a little relaxation and some of these additional symptoms are going away. While I can I am going to try to get some stuff I need to get done handled. Hopefully everyone had/has a good week, and now weekend. Ill try to get up another post a little quicker next time. Hopefully today is the last day of this extra fun! Lol.

Sorry, I can barely think straight, so no CF tips, or body hacks on this post. I’ll add one the next time for sure.

Imagine…

So, it’s about 2pm and the Super Bowl is going to come on in a couple of hours, so with a small amount of time to kill, I am going to write this and then i’ll be done for the day, probably won’t post again until tomorrow. I am feeling pretty good today, aside from being congested a bit (the cold weather always does this to me) so I am trying to get some stuff done that I didn’t get done this past week.

As I’ve stated in previous blogs, I am seeking and trying very hard to find my place in this whole social media neighborhood, as well as finding my niche, if you will. Working a 9-5 is out of the question for me, getting creative about how to earn a living, and ways to create income while being happy at the same time is something I have been focusing on a lot recently. I find myself dreaming about being a spokesperson, or brand ambassador for clothes, cars, lifestyle consumer goods, etc. It is a bit daydream-esque I know, but it is my dream to be able to focus on my health, and have that focus be the platform for which I “sell” myself to companies showing the world what someone with Cystic Fibrosis can do with a bit of financial, or product backing. So, I have been researching what kind of companies “sponsor” people, and although there isn’t a lot of “individual sponsorship” for people who aren’t famous or star athletes, there are a few people who’s model I am going to try to follow, but in doing so I want to carve out my own path, something that really hasn’t been done much, if ever. Now, watch me transform my health, my life, and my community while dealing with the daily struggles of CF, but no holds barred. So, no filter, no censorship…the raw and real life that I live, but with the things I want and dream of being intertwined to a create a journey of regaining my former glory of health, so to speak. A full vision of what my life is, the roughest and best parts of it. Intertwined hopefully with some kinds of product, service, and financial support I am doing everything I can to attain. So a car commercial, a clothing commercial, a food commercial all rolled together and how it pertains to me and my health, the way I have to do certain things, and how those products or financial backing play a roll in what I do, when I do it, and how I do it. I realize there are a lot of “if’s” in the idea I am figuring out how to bring to fruition…there are already hurdles I had no idea I would run into, so I understand it’s very presumptuous to think I can do this or obtain the things I hope to obtain…it’s my dream though, and I am doing everything I can with what I have available to me to make it a reality, hopefully one day I’ll be looking back reading this saying “I did it, I’m here!”

How it looks in my mind: I wake up and the camera is already rolling “a day in the life begins.” I roll out of bed and do my morning coughing and hacking routine where I maybe reach for and drink, thanks to their sponsorship, my bottle of Gatorade.

Then I get all of my medications and treatments out of the way, while I play around on my computer or video game (given to me by the electronics company that sponsors me with their product’s) and relax while listening to my earphones…

As I finish up and start down to the kitchen to make some breakfast I open the fridge containing all the Boost, yogurt, etc. that I can consume, with the help of their generous sponsorship, my product placement is me nourishing my tired, sore, weak body with a couple of chocolate Boost’s and a yogurt to get my blood sugar up.

Next is bathroom and shower time, this is my personal time to get my mind right, and allow the hot water to reduce the tension in my muscles and relax my body…afterwards I use my skincare, or sore muscle creams to ease the rest of the pain and continue my day.

I come out to head on in and get dressed, depending on the day’s tasks, appointments, business meets, etc. I reach for a certain garment of clothing provided to me by my favorite outdoor apparel company, or if it’s serious business, I select a suit and tie from the couple of tailored suits given to my by a generous men’s business attire company. I then throw on my New Balances, or my Sperry’s or my penny loafer’s…all depends on what I have to do that day.

As I finish up and get ready to head out, I go out and start the truck, sedan, or coupe generously given to me to get around, and act as a rolling advertisement, by my automobile sponsor. Which is decked out with ad placement in the form of stickers, or a certain “full-body” decal, or a window flag, maybe even a creative license plate, or paint job.

I head off to the meeting where I am doing a collaboration for a podcast, a meeting with a pharmaceutical company about their new allergy medicine, or their new version of a rescue inhaler, even something generically taken by many people Advil, or Tums…whatever company willing to throw their support being me, I will give my all in helping them reach the goals of said company.

Now, this is entirely fantasy based post, none of this real as of now, and none of these companies support me in any way, this is basically an: if I could wake up tomorrow and be in a world created totally by my dreams and wishes scenario. Idealistic would be good description…but, fantasy is more on point. This isn’t probably something that’s even possible to do, as most professional athlete’s don’t have this kind of sponsorship…but, just imagine…being able to focus on my health totally, not having to worry about what I was going to wear, how I was going to get form point A to B, what I was going to eat, if I was able to afford my medication, and doctor appointment. If it were all, or even partly covered by some kinds of help from the corporate world it would change my life.

These are the kinds of things I dream about…not luxurious trip’s, or expensive watches, the newest iPhone, the most sought after rims for a car, endless margarita’s, or anything of the sort. I dream of being able to, as If I didn’t have CF, just LIVE, to do the daily activities most people take for granted as they move forward in life purchasing their first car, their first home, having children, getting married. It’s not impossible, but it’s very improbable that I will have that kind of life, the Cystic Fibrosis is an incredibly heavy ball and chain that keeps me in the place I’m in, basically just keeping my head above water is requiring all of my energy and time. So, my dreams include the things that would allow me to flourish, or just have what most people consider “normal.”

Again, I know how this sounds, trust me I see it the same way, but that doesn’t mean I am not going to try…because you never know. Someone reading this could be a fortune 500 executive, and decide hey I like this guy’s idea, and id love to help him get his health back in order…let get the ball rolling…lol. I know, I know…but I can dream right? lol. Anyways, enough of this high fantasy, back to reality it is. Either way I appreciate you taking the time to check this out and have a great day, be safe while enjoying the Super Bowl.