Spread too thin…

Well, I have been trying to make a post a bit more often but like the title says I’ve spread myself I bit thin…but, in a good way.

I have been hitting the gym consistently, today I did chest, tri’s, and calves. Maybe ill post one of my workout routine’s soon. However, one of the things about Cystic Fibrosis is you have to pace yourself or you’ll burn out quickly. So, basically every other day I have to “rest,” which in CF terms means: hang out around the house, don’t do anything too active, eat and drink a lot…and sleep as much as possible to allow the body to recover.

I’m not gonna lie I can deal with not being able to breathe well, put on weight easily, or even taking 100 pills a day. What I absolutely hate is “resting!”

There are only so many thing you can do before you start to go a little stir crazy…and it gets difficult. So, I’ve been taking on a few new projects, trying to get my foot in the door in a couple of new situations…just for some change of pace.

And, also to try to acquire some new income streams. Since working a 9-5 is kinda out of the question for me, I have to be creative. Its a bit of a pain in the ass.\

But, recently having a few things going on simultaneously, trying to keep a steady workout routine, and taking care of my CF stuff I have a bit more on my plate than I usually do and I can feel it, and the pressure.

So, I guess that’s good problems to have…things can ALWAYS get worse…lol. As such I like to enjoy myself as much as I can when things are going “well.”

Anyway, hope everyone is having a good week. Its almost Wednesday so that’s cool…but, I appricaite you reading!

-p.s. I added a new body hack, and daily tip, the focus is working out, and nutrition based on health benefits…check them out!

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Hitting the GYM!

So, I haven’t been posting as much recently, which wasn’t intentional…I had been feeling a bit crappy for a while.

However, lately I have been pretty busy and just haven’t had much free time. As I’ve been trying to create a positive snowball effect of things to improve my life a little bit.

I have been consistently hitting the gym..an working out with a trainer friend of mine. Gains son! Lol, anyway…I have been seeing some pretty decent results not in just physical appearance, which used to be the most important thing to me…wanted to look good when I took my shirt of, haha…but, also in actual applicable strength. Something that I know many CFer’s deal with when they go extended periods being stuck in bed, or being told by Dr.’s to “take it easy…”

It is very easy to develop a sedentary lifestyle when you have something like CF or anything that is chronic and debilitating, it becomes almost SOP to take is easy. It takes less to feel sick, especially when you don’t limit what you do, so putting limits on yourself is just almost a knee-jerk reaction.

So, I used to be pretty heavy into body building, I weighed like 160 and was pretty jacked especially because of my body frame, and the near 0% body fat, lol…CF does have some benefits, even if they are kind of shallow…I went a good long time away from the gym, but I had some muscle memory still and the first couple workouts were surprisingly beneficial. Then you hit that “wall” where you really have to push through because you aren’t seeing the same instant results you were seeing for those first couple of workouts back.

Now, it had been about 1.5 months and I’ve been pretty consistent, I’m seeing some new muscle definition after breaking through that wall of resistance you get for the first but of time you start lifting again…its kind of a strange feeling to describe, but you feel “off, slow, weak, out of place, unsure of yourself, or even unsure of your workout routine…”

It took a few weeks for that to go away but, since I’ve experienced it before I knew I had to keep at it and let myself feel the frustration, so that I could feel when I passed that wall…and sure enough I did, I started being able to lift more, seeing more perpetual pumps, and generally having more energy and strength during the days.

It goes without saying that the physically visual benefits of working out are what a lot of people go for, I used to be one of them…but, as I’ve seen more CF related problems come into my life the impact that isn’t outwardly visible is WAY more of what I’m going for…useful, applicable strength, and generally feeling better…that’s what I hit the gym hard for. Don’t get my wrong though, it’s a great feeling to go into the locker room post workout, pull off your shirt, and see he visual improvements of killing a workout.

Well, this is a pretty long post, but I wanted to jump back in with both feet. I am going to go back to doing a couple of posts a week, as well as some new body/CF life hacks…and now I have a few more that I had forgotten over the years.

So, if you have something life CF or any chronic illness that greatly restricts what you can/can’t do sometimes the benefits of pushing that “I don’t feel good, I’m just gonna take it easy” feeling out of the way, sucking It up, blasting a few albuterol shots, and just getting out and doing what you need/want to do outweighs the consequences you will end up facing. For me the biggest one is actually psychological. And there’s an incredible benefit and feeling to know I could have stayed home but I sucked it up and did my thing anyway.

Hope everyone has a good rest of the week, thanks for taking the time to read!

–  Will

another late night, or early morning

Well, its almost 4:45am and I’m still awake. I dozed for a bit but my sleeping schedule has been extremely strange of late. I sleep a few hours and am awake for several, rinse and repeat…it sucks.

I have been in a very peculiar situation for the past couple of years, in that I have a better control and understanding of what my life with CF is going to look like as I get older, but it also changes slightly everyday, no days are completely predictable of even able to be planned for and it is pressuring me to figure out how to make this situation work to my benefit, or at least be able to benefit while dealing with my situation. Which is very damn hard, and not pleasant at all!

I just wrote my first blog for a few months a couple of days ago, and got a decent number of people reading It as well as a few new followers which is always a nice surprise. But, to be honest, I realize everyday more and more how much different my life is going to be than any kind of “normal” I had ever pictured as a kid and it is a bummer to say the least.

The only options I really have are “outside the box” type things, since regular places of employment either can’t accommodate my schedule, or I accidentally cough during the interview, lol…in which case I get extremely strange, albeit concerned looks, followed by: “are you ok?” or “do you cough like that all the time?” at which point I have to explain in detail what Cystic Fibrosis is, and that is isn’t contagious…and then the obligatory “thank you for coming in, we’ll let you know…” Which never happens oddly enough. I get it…I sound like someone who has been smoking since they were 2 and is probably gonna keel over the second I stand up out of the chair, haha.

Anyway, enough ranting for one day.

Ill be getting back to my daily life/body hacks posts soon, I actually have quite a few stocked up, and hopefully the tone will be a little more upbeat. So, thank you for reading and please know I welcome any questions or comments, or even suggestion…about anything. Hope everyone has a great rest of the week! Appreciate you stopping by…

-Will

It’s Been a While…

So, I haven’t posted anything to my site in a while, and sadly it was unable to be avoided. That’s one of the shittiest parts about CF if you get sick or rundown, there’s no toughing through it, you just have to endure…until its run its course.

Well, for me the past several months have absolutely SUCKED. I have had one problem after another, and rundown at its worst. So, I’ve been biding my time, and recovering as best I could.

While I couldn’t really do anything physical or even much of anything, I have been thinking about EVERYTHING a lot…and I think that’s one of the things about CF that’s strange. I’ve been told many times over my life that I have an “old soul.” And I’m guessing most CFer’s have as well. I think it’s a given when you have so much time to contemplate EVERYTHING. It forces you to “age, or grow up” faster than the average person.

Throughout my while life I’ve had older friends, I’ve dated people who are usually older than I am. And not purposefully…but, more out of a desire to have someone I can relate to better, they just so happen to be older.

So, being that the last few months have been difficult, I’ve been trying to figure out a way to accommodate life around being sick, and its not easy. I have however discovered a few things that may make it easier as I get older, if I get “older.” (not trying to be morbid, just realistic).

The Best way I can describe what I’ve been thinking about is simplicity, I need to develop my life around a simple set of needs, wants, belongings, activities, etc..

So, I have decided I want to look into the “Tiny House” movement, and find a way to work in some sort of field where I can do most of my work from home, it will probably be the only way I keep a semi-normal life…

Anyway, I have been sleeping very little and am trying to get this post up as a re-entrance into my posting schedule, as I’ve been out of the loop for so long now.

For that I do apologize, I wish it wasn’t this way, but it is…for now at least. So, to those who have read and posted in my absence I appreciate you greatly, and any new viewers I thank you for taking the time. it means a lot to me to be able to reach even the small number that I do.

Hopefully everyone has had a good summer, and enjoys the season change as much as I do…but, for now, have a good rest of the week and I’ll be posting more frequently now, hope you enjoy. Thanks again for stopping by!

Fellow CFer’s…breathe strong! And stay healthy!

The Return…

So, it has been a pretty long time since I’ve posted anything, I haven’t been doing too well health wise, but trying to keep my spirits up.

I had some really bad CF rundown, and then a week ago I had a broken tooth extracted…that’s 3 now in less than 2 years, ughhh!

But, I don’t want to let this blog go stagnant, however I have to admit it has been low on my list of priorities, especially being in pain and not being able to take pain medicine…I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before, but I have had a problem with pain meds in the past, doctors will fuck you up if you’re not careful…

Anyways, I’m doing a good bit better now, still not totally healed up, but on my way for sure…hopefully!?

After my Mollie girl left us, I had a pretty rough couple of weeks, then an extraction and now I’m finally starting to come out the other side, but its a bitch to say the least.

However, I am a strong willed person and I wont let things defeat me anymore, besides killing me I’m not gonna stop. So, good…but, kind of morbid I know, lol…

Well, I just wanted to get back into the swing of things and get y’all updated on my situation…im not dead…lol! I hope everyone has had a good spring break, Easter, or anything you’ve been up to really…

And finally, I will be posting regularly again, and am actually thinking about upgrading my site subscription for some different benefits and more personalization, maybe starting to branch out a bit and see how it goes…so wish me luck!

Thanks for reading and hope everyone is doing well!

– Will

 

Watchathon Week!

So, it’s been a rough time for me recently, if you’ve read any of the recent posts…the few I have made…you will know I’ve been sick, my dog had to be taken in to be put down, and all kinds of horrible shit.

CF life is terrible in and of itself, but when you get even one thing extra that adds pressure, stress, angst, pain, anything really that isn’t easy to deal with it gets really f#cked up. Everything becomes exponentially harder.

So, there are certain times when it isn’t as hard because something (an outside variable) makes stuff easier to disregard.

Well, this week is watch-a-thon week on demand, with X-Finity…I live in an area where the cable company I have really has a monopoly on the area. It sucks sometimes, but there are benefits, and I am currently in the middle of one of those benefits: “watch-a-thon week,” it basically opens up the channels like Starz, Showtime, etc. you can either watch shows that you don’t have access to unless you pay for the particular channel, or you can watch the movies on demand on those channels. It’s pretty cool, it lasts about a week, and it allows you to catch up or watch stuff you wouldn’t get to unless you pay for those premium channels, which I don’t…lol.

Well, that’s what I have been and will be doing for the next couple of days, and I will be watching a bunch of movies, and maybe some cool TV shows I don’t know yet, i’ll figure it out when I run out of movies I want to watch, if that happens.

Right now I am watching a movie called “Freaks of Nature” it’s like a mix between “Can’t Hardly Wait, Final Destination, and Twilight/Walking Dead”…lol. Pretty funny, and a crazy vampire/alien/zombie/human integration movie…nice!

Anyways, hope all is well with everyone, and have a good week!

Stay Positive

So, lately I’ve been having a rough time both physically with the Cystic Fibrosis, and also a little bit mentally.

Physically, I’ve been having a rough time with the allergy season, It has sapped my energy, and made my face itchy, watery, and red…lol…it sucks…

Mentally, I’m having a bit of trouble, I’m alone a lot and I’m struggling to figure out what to do with my downtime, especially when I don’t have energy to do shit…

Making yourself do things when you don’t feel good is one thing, but when you feel extra shitty, its damn near impossible, and when moving is taxing it takes it to a whole new level.

I see and hear about what people are doing and it bums me out…I try my hardest to stay positive, which is very hard to do, and 5 years ago I would’ve had a serious breakdown by now, probably gone on a bender and paid for it for several months afterwards. Now, I have gotten my shit together since then, but mentally it is never going to be easy to go through life with CF.

I am always going to have to be strong mentally, not being rock solid will lead to my demise, and not metaphorically, but literally…it definitely takes a toll on you knowing things will NEVER get easier, in fact they’ll only get harder.

It is a mind f#ck and then some…but, I am strong, and I will stay positive, and I will make it…

I have made the resolve of my inner strength being solid, I have an iron will, and it cant be broken. Maybe temporarily damaged, but nothing will ever break me totally again, ever. To tell the truth knowing that is the only thing that keeps me going…is that I wont break, life will have to get rid of me to break me, and even then I hope to leave behind a legacy that outlasts my time here physically.

With that I’m gonna go listen to some rap, and get in the mood to dominate when I wake up tomorrow!! Do what you gotta do…

 

Been Gone…

I haven’t made a post in a few days, been having a rough time CF stuff. But, I did want to make a post and throw it up…

I have noticed something lately that I don’t really know how to approach but ill try.

So, I don’t have nearly as many friends as I used to, I have acquaintances, and I have a few close friends. However, it is very hard to keep friends when you constantly have to disappear for several days at a time to tend to your health and physical ailments.

I have slowly lost fiends over the years for many different reasons some of which were my choice, some weren’t, some were ridiculous reasons, but then there’s those people who juts kind of fade away not for any particular reason. Those I think are the hardest to come to terms with. I was going through my phone the other day trying to clear out some old unused contacts and I noticed I was deleting a lot of “old friends” numbers…

It is something we all come to terms with when we start getting older people drift apart…its unavoidable. But, that doesn’t mean it makes it any easier to do or even accept.

Anyways, just wanted to throw it out there, if you have an old friend and you haven’t talked to them in a while, reach out. It is something we all need to do more of. We allow social media to kind of fill in that spot but really how many close fiends do you still have that you have had since say college? Its drastic how many people are out of my life that I never thought would be.

Getting Pumped Up!

So, I just grabbed a quick pick me up shower, since I’ve been tensed up all day watching these basketball games!

My bracket has held up for the most part, however I am a very impatient person as ive mentioned previously, so I always pause live TV and let it run 1.5 hours ahead so I can fast forward through commercials, in this case I can fast forward through commercials but also half-time, and media timeouts…if you’re not watching Duke is playing right now against South Carolina, and I’ve got Duke taking it so I am about to un-pause live TV and watch the second half…lol.

Anyways, like I said I paused live TV so I have to avoid social media for the next 30+ minutes until this games has played out…in my time.  Being stoked as I am I’ve been yelling at the TV and jumping up and down all day so I needed a hot shower to relax my muscles…

But, the time has come I am gonna go (hopefully) watch Duke finish this out and move on to the next round…hopefully everyone had a great weekend full of great NCAA Basketball!

Thanks for reading! Have a good week!

Feeling better!

So, if you’re following any of my posts you know I had a small breakdown just a day ago…well, like I said in that post they don’t last too long  and I already feel a good bit better.

But, it did a number on me that day, and night…so much so that I had to dip into my reserve of anxiety meds which I don’t like to take a lot for that particular reason, when I need them I NEED them to work…lol. and the less you take them the better they work when you need them.

With something like Cystic Fibrosis this kind of thing is unavoidable, it happens incrementally thought the week, you have ups and downs, but some days are literally just hell on earth type days, that one was falling into that category for sure!

Anyways, I handled it as best I could, and shared it with y’all to show you how easily it is to go from “good” to “bad” with something like CF and not in a physical way (well yes physically) but that time more so mentally…So, I took my meds, meditated, then hooked up to some video games to blow some steam off…it worked, by the time late night/early morning rolled around I was able to sleep a bit, and today am doing much better!

So, with that I am going to go watch some basketball, as Northwestern made history today making it into and then winning their first NCAA tournament, something 78 years in the making. But, that and a couple of other games totally screwed my bracket up…oh well, that’s “March Madness” for you…lol.

Hopefully everyone has a good rest of the week, and if you’re watching these games have as much fun as I do getting into them!