Routine Extraction

Wake up: 8:30 am (feeling pretty good today)

Make some tea and have an orange and a couple of doughnuts: 9:30 am (not having too much trouble today, must be one of the good ones.)

Take the dog for a walk and stretch/get some fresh air: 10:15 am-11:00 am (nice weather finally)

11:15 am – 2:00 pm: bathroom routine, and shower (extra long shower enjoying the hot water after a long walk)

2:15 pm: make some lunch, and watch a bit of TV (Tuna sandwich and chicken noodle soup, and this new show called “Taboo” which I must say is pretty cool, weird but cool)

4:00 pm: making some phone calls, handling my daily routine of household stuff, cleaning etc. (reveling in the fact that today isn’t really too rough)

5:00 pm: got to talk to my Dad for a good little while (something I don’t get to do too often)

Really having a pretty nice, and normal day…enjoying the weather and playing with my dog, as well as catching up on some stuff I’ve been putting off…can’t complain.

And then my luck rears it’s head and the routine turns to shit!…As I am eating a late afternoon snack I take a bite of seafood pasta, suddenly I feel it. I bite down on a piece of shell, and CRUNCH…one of my teeth breaks…son of a bitch! I run to the bathroom and start examining my mouth, rinsing with mouthwash and getting out my floss sticks to make sure everything is ok. It isn’t…I realize I have broken my back molar and a rather large piece of the side has come off. F@CK ME!! This is just my luck, as I am taking the nice day for granted I get a visit from reality…

So, with CF I have a serious vitamin deficiency, mainly ADEK. One of the thing’s I have come to accept about the Cystic Fibrosis is this: weak bones, weak joints, rapid aging of the body and it’s components. And, just as I am eating my snack it comes back onto me like a ton of bricks…I will be dealing with this kind of bullshit for the rest of my life.

Now, tomorrow when I wake up I will have to call the dentist, and be prepared to be told “you need an extraction” being that the last time I had a serious dental emergency that is what I needed. I am expecting to have a pretty crappy couple of week waiting for an appointment, and trying to figure out how I am going to pay for what I hope is a routine procedure, but due to the nature of CF and the poor health of my body in general, I am expecting the worst. “William you need an extraction of your back right molar, we don’t have any opening for a month, and your dental insurance doesn’t cover this kind of stuff, it will cost around $1500.00.”

You get used to dealing with problems on a regular basis with something like CF, and this is definitely one of the more jarring and miserable ones, as my body deteriorates at an expedited pace. So, here we go…ill find out what is going to come next tomorrow when I call my dentist. FML!

Dave Matthews Band

It’s almost 3 am, and I’m sitting here watching some basketball, listening to “Louisiana Bayou”…wide awake, and bored as hell.

I just went and checked out what the Dave concert coming to my city in May had left tickets-wise…I usually get lawn seat anyways so it shouldn’t be a problem. But, I don’t know how I am going to feel come 5/31…which sucks. Especially because I’d rather have a seat that doesn’t make me super sore afterwards…yay for CF…lol.

I’ve been to several of the concerts in the past ten years…maybe 3-4 and I love it, he’s one of my favorite live musicians by far…but, getting sicker as I am I don’t know if I can make it this year, and that bums me out.

If you’ve been following my blog at all you know I have Cystic Fibrosis, and that I’m trying some new avenues of approach in life, income, activities in general…and basically my approach to being sick all the time and only getting worse, as CF is a progressive degenerative disease.

I haven’t blogged in a few days because I’ve been going through some rough shit, all kinds of unexpected health stuff, family stuff, and just random things that when added on to the already heaping pile of shit on my plate, is like the straw the breaks the camel’s back. I know I complain a lot but I guess that is what this blog is for me…a way to share my pain with people without having to pay a therapist, or annoy my limited number of friends to the point that they want less to do with me than they already do. Its pretty lonely having a genetic disease that restricts your ability to participate in the lives of the people you’ve grown up with and call friends.

So, like I said I just got of Ticketmaster, and am thinking if I can get a family member to “birthday purchase” me some tickets I may go, but if not, I probably wont be able to…sad. I sound pretty f#cking pathetic tonight…I must say. Whatever though, like I said I use this as an outlet so I don’t go nuts keeping it all in.

I am still in the process of trying to find some sponsors or companies that want a CF patient as a brand ambassador, but so far…no luck. Which is ok, I didn’t expect it to happen fast, if it ever happens at all. But, damn…lol. I could use some help in a major way.

If you know anyone looking for a person to sponsor, or if you know a company looking to do some philanthropy, or even a store looking for a brand ambassador…please pass the information along to me, or give them my email: pmma85887@gmail.com. I would be grateful. Also, me and a comedian buddy are going to start doing a podcast, something like “CF kid and the Canuck” or “Laugh at my Sickness with me.” We haven’t started yet, so it’s still in developmental stages obviously, but again, any ad placement or capital would help move things along. And, like I’ve said before compensation will be met with advertising, and promotion…I’m trying to set up some partnerships! Keep me in mind…

Anyways, as I haven’t posted in a while I’ll quit my whining, and get back to the usual…here are my CF Life hack’s, and tip’s of the day:

CF Life tip of the day: Don’t neglect your physical appearance, I have been guilty of this frequently, not getting haircut’s, or wearing sweatpants out…keeping yourself looking good, even if you don’t feel good, can in and of itself boost your mood, and give you a mental edge. As well as dressing nice, it definitely makes you feel better about yourself, and boosts your self-image.

CF Life Body Hack # 5: Sleep with your body in a fixed position, using pillows, keep your head above your torso, this will keep mucus from draining into the back of your throat, which makes it much easier to breathe throughout the night, also, it doubles as keeping reflux from making its way to your esophagus as easily…which with something like CF can literally wake you in a panic thinking you’re having a heart attack…it’s incredibly beneficial. Try it!